So it's been nearly a year and I haven't moved forward at all.
I *am* more determined to improve my health, and have found more information and more ways to contain my chocolate cravings.
I *am* more determined to write and publish my book.
And *mabe* we have Son started on a viable job.
Friday, November 6, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
October Acidosis
Thursday, October 22: Pain started in left shoulder. I noticed that I couldn't sleep on that side. I dismissed it as minor.
Friday: Didn't think about it all day. Pain apparently minor. Again couldn't sleep on it. I thought that taking pain reliever might be enough to get rid of the problem, and took a 'packet' of 1 aspirin and 1 Advil with 1 Vit. C and Chromium. The pain was slightly worse than before, and I didn't sleep well. I think I took another packet during the night.
Saturday: The pain was bad enough that I didn't get up all day. I couldn't move my arm without extreme pain. It was painful to touch, as though I were badly bruised, but there was no discoloration or swelling.
During that day, we considered the options of what it might be, and came up with three: bursitis, heart attack, arthritis. Arthritis I dismissed out-of-hand, since this was a sudden attack, with no precedent. We gave serious thought to heart attack, but I had a hard time believing it. In either case, bursitis or heart, aspirin seemed a useful treatment.
I began taking aspirin and Vit C every hour, with no noticeable benefit, and began to raise the aspirin to 2 with each dose. I ate very little - boiled potato with butter around 6:00 pm, and cooked corn and peas with grapes and grape tomatoes around 10:00. I also had about 15 chocolate chips scattered throughout the day, with the vague notion that if it was heart, a little bit of stimulation wouldn't hurt.
The pain never let up at all. At night I applied a plaster of menthol, camphor and capsicum. I think it helped calm the pain enough to allow me to sleep, but I'm not sure of that. It did *not* make my shoulder feel 'warm'.
Sunday: Looked to be a repetition of Saturday. I was beginning to get really worried, since it wasn't fixing itself and I still had no handle on what it was or what to do about it. I tried getting up, but was exhausted within an hour and went back to bed.
I ate potato, and put on the pork roast to boil, since I knew it was going to spoil if I didn't get to it. There was no chocolate and plenty of aspirin. And pork.
The second time I took three aspirin, late in the day, I really stopped and thought about it. Realizing that it wasn't helping, I began to wonder whether it was making the pain worse. Remembering having heard that eventually aspirin makes arthritis worse, and knowing that it was absolutely no help now, I thought it a high possibility. I stopped taking aspirin (extremely acid-forming), or any pain reliever at all. I increased my calcium supplements, and got serious about baking soda.
Monday: Things were a tiny bit better; I got up in the morning to fix Dale's breakfast and sandwich for lunch. I didn't add lettuce, since I didn't see any way of doing it one-handed. It just looked like too much pain for the benefit. But I got through the rest all right. Roy took Dale to work. I ate almost nothing all day. I had potato, and pork and saurkraut.
Tuesday:Again a tiny bit better; essentially a repeat of Monday, but more aggressive with both the calcium and baking soda. Feeling enough better to think, I made a doctor's appointment for Wednesday, and looked up 'acid alkaline' in google. I spent the whole day researching pH, and what foods leave the greatest alkaline residue. I was amazed to find some rather sweet foods on the list, practically topped by dried figs, which I love but had avoided in my efforts to keep sugar intake low.
By Tuesday evening, I was doing well enough that I felt like I was on the mend. Then I ate pork and saurkraut. Nono. It apparently has a high acid index.
Wednesday: Significantly better. I could move my shoulder slightly, enough to move my elbow an inch or two from my waist. I began to be able to type. With Roy driving, I went to Benson medical supply on Colvin and Kenmore and bought pH paper. With that, by 10:30 am, I had established that my urine pH was 4, which is dangerous by any standard. I went out and bought some raw foods which I thought might be helpful - green beans, peas, spinach, carrots - also V8 juice, and dried figs and dates. By 3:30 after a lunch of potatoes and raw peas, my urine was up to 5, a significant improvement I resisted the pork and saurkraut that evening, and had a much better night.
Thursday, my fasting pH was 7! Feeling justified, I was not as careful on Thursday, feeling that I could now eat 'normally' as long as it was predominantly acid-forming foods. It was a bit previous, and my urine later in the day had dropped a bit - probably 6.5. Nevertheless, with a great deal of difficulty, I could move my arm into a greater range. Also, from that point, I 'felt' better and more ambitious. Roy and I worked in the yard, and I pushed myself until very tired.
Friday I was too tired for a repeat of Thursday, but maintained my diet, and sleeping on Friday night was relatively easy.
So I feel that, as long as I keep the pH up, I am essentially 'over' the acidosis which I believe was the initiating problem. I have yet to 'recover' though. I need to heal the wounded bone (with minerals) and work through the range of motion.
No, I'm the wimp. I'm not going to a hospital unless I absolutely have to. First off, I'm not sure what kind of serious painkillers they can give me. I've now discovered that Lortab and Dilautid have no effect on me, and they would spend two or three days establishing that to their own satisfaction. Since I *do* seem to have a high level of pain tolerance (except with childbirth!), I'd rather stay out of their hands.
And they would never have tested my pH. They just don't do that. The doctor totally ignored the pH strips that I brought in, taped in order to a paper and labeled with day, time, what I had eaten, and what the reading was at the time. Just dismissed it. It had the same 'feel' as when they ignore you because what you're saying is going to prevent insurance from paying for it. What really got me was her insistence on my trying Naproxin when I'm sitting there holding the proof that I'm dangerously acidic!
I suspect, without any reference to back it up, that the dying off of yeast cells also causes acidity. I had been attacking them aggressively, which you aren't really supposed to do. I know that yeast itself uses the dying cells for food, and wonder whether that indeed means that the dead cells are acidic. Between that, a sudden increase in my meat eating, and the spike in aspirin, it would hardly be any wonder that the body had to fight back.
Layne67, from LJ, wondered whether it might be frozen shoulder: <"http://orthopedics.about.com/cs/frozenshoulder/a/frozenshoulder.htm">, and after looking it up, I replied:
I followed your link, and wouldn't be surprised if that is indeed the 'diagnosis'. Which doesn't change one whit my own belief that the basic problem is acidosis.
In any case, the damage already having been done, it is now a real challenge to move and stretch the area and get full usage back. A lot of the arm strength is simply gone - or at least too painful to use - but I am improving!
I didn't mention that I dismissed bursitis, having had it in my knee years ago. Just didn't have the same kind of symptoms.
Friday: Didn't think about it all day. Pain apparently minor. Again couldn't sleep on it. I thought that taking pain reliever might be enough to get rid of the problem, and took a 'packet' of 1 aspirin and 1 Advil with 1 Vit. C and Chromium. The pain was slightly worse than before, and I didn't sleep well. I think I took another packet during the night.
Saturday: The pain was bad enough that I didn't get up all day. I couldn't move my arm without extreme pain. It was painful to touch, as though I were badly bruised, but there was no discoloration or swelling.
During that day, we considered the options of what it might be, and came up with three: bursitis, heart attack, arthritis. Arthritis I dismissed out-of-hand, since this was a sudden attack, with no precedent. We gave serious thought to heart attack, but I had a hard time believing it. In either case, bursitis or heart, aspirin seemed a useful treatment.
I began taking aspirin and Vit C every hour, with no noticeable benefit, and began to raise the aspirin to 2 with each dose. I ate very little - boiled potato with butter around 6:00 pm, and cooked corn and peas with grapes and grape tomatoes around 10:00. I also had about 15 chocolate chips scattered throughout the day, with the vague notion that if it was heart, a little bit of stimulation wouldn't hurt.
The pain never let up at all. At night I applied a plaster of menthol, camphor and capsicum. I think it helped calm the pain enough to allow me to sleep, but I'm not sure of that. It did *not* make my shoulder feel 'warm'.
Sunday: Looked to be a repetition of Saturday. I was beginning to get really worried, since it wasn't fixing itself and I still had no handle on what it was or what to do about it. I tried getting up, but was exhausted within an hour and went back to bed.
I ate potato, and put on the pork roast to boil, since I knew it was going to spoil if I didn't get to it. There was no chocolate and plenty of aspirin. And pork.
The second time I took three aspirin, late in the day, I really stopped and thought about it. Realizing that it wasn't helping, I began to wonder whether it was making the pain worse. Remembering having heard that eventually aspirin makes arthritis worse, and knowing that it was absolutely no help now, I thought it a high possibility. I stopped taking aspirin (extremely acid-forming), or any pain reliever at all. I increased my calcium supplements, and got serious about baking soda.
Monday: Things were a tiny bit better; I got up in the morning to fix Dale's breakfast and sandwich for lunch. I didn't add lettuce, since I didn't see any way of doing it one-handed. It just looked like too much pain for the benefit. But I got through the rest all right. Roy took Dale to work. I ate almost nothing all day. I had potato, and pork and saurkraut.
Tuesday:Again a tiny bit better; essentially a repeat of Monday, but more aggressive with both the calcium and baking soda. Feeling enough better to think, I made a doctor's appointment for Wednesday, and looked up 'acid alkaline' in google. I spent the whole day researching pH, and what foods leave the greatest alkaline residue. I was amazed to find some rather sweet foods on the list, practically topped by dried figs, which I love but had avoided in my efforts to keep sugar intake low.
By Tuesday evening, I was doing well enough that I felt like I was on the mend. Then I ate pork and saurkraut. Nono. It apparently has a high acid index.
Wednesday: Significantly better. I could move my shoulder slightly, enough to move my elbow an inch or two from my waist. I began to be able to type. With Roy driving, I went to Benson medical supply on Colvin and Kenmore and bought pH paper. With that, by 10:30 am, I had established that my urine pH was 4, which is dangerous by any standard. I went out and bought some raw foods which I thought might be helpful - green beans, peas, spinach, carrots - also V8 juice, and dried figs and dates. By 3:30 after a lunch of potatoes and raw peas, my urine was up to 5, a significant improvement I resisted the pork and saurkraut that evening, and had a much better night.
Thursday, my fasting pH was 7! Feeling justified, I was not as careful on Thursday, feeling that I could now eat 'normally' as long as it was predominantly acid-forming foods. It was a bit previous, and my urine later in the day had dropped a bit - probably 6.5. Nevertheless, with a great deal of difficulty, I could move my arm into a greater range. Also, from that point, I 'felt' better and more ambitious. Roy and I worked in the yard, and I pushed myself until very tired.
Friday I was too tired for a repeat of Thursday, but maintained my diet, and sleeping on Friday night was relatively easy.
So I feel that, as long as I keep the pH up, I am essentially 'over' the acidosis which I believe was the initiating problem. I have yet to 'recover' though. I need to heal the wounded bone (with minerals) and work through the range of motion.
No, I'm the wimp. I'm not going to a hospital unless I absolutely have to. First off, I'm not sure what kind of serious painkillers they can give me. I've now discovered that Lortab and Dilautid have no effect on me, and they would spend two or three days establishing that to their own satisfaction. Since I *do* seem to have a high level of pain tolerance (except with childbirth!), I'd rather stay out of their hands.
And they would never have tested my pH. They just don't do that. The doctor totally ignored the pH strips that I brought in, taped in order to a paper and labeled with day, time, what I had eaten, and what the reading was at the time. Just dismissed it. It had the same 'feel' as when they ignore you because what you're saying is going to prevent insurance from paying for it. What really got me was her insistence on my trying Naproxin when I'm sitting there holding the proof that I'm dangerously acidic!
I suspect, without any reference to back it up, that the dying off of yeast cells also causes acidity. I had been attacking them aggressively, which you aren't really supposed to do. I know that yeast itself uses the dying cells for food, and wonder whether that indeed means that the dead cells are acidic. Between that, a sudden increase in my meat eating, and the spike in aspirin, it would hardly be any wonder that the body had to fight back.
I followed your link, and wouldn't be surprised if that is indeed the 'diagnosis'. Which doesn't change one whit my own belief that the basic problem is acidosis.
In any case, the damage already having been done, it is now a real challenge to move and stretch the area and get full usage back. A lot of the arm strength is simply gone - or at least too painful to use - but I am improving!
I didn't mention that I dismissed bursitis, having had it in my knee years ago. Just didn't have the same kind of symptoms.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
September State-of-the-Life
I'm actually walking. Okay, I still waddle some, but it's getting better. I've been eating too much sugar, but in the process of cutting down again.
Relevant to the purpose of this blog: I'm doing the Sanctuary Press Workshop at ConClave this year, and may actually be prepared for it!
AND Daughter and I are working on 'artful' boxes for the art show. AND I still hope to complete the eggshell TARDIS to enter.
Meanwhile, work on the back of the house is slow but progressing. Son is dragging his feet because he's convinced that his gf will pay for it. But we put up a pretty good shelter to store all the scraps of lumber in. I'm pleased with that.
I've also been working on the front yard a bit - changing the look of the bushes and weeding. And Son transplanted the unwanted tree from the curbside to the middle of the empty lot.
Relevant to the purpose of this blog: I'm doing the Sanctuary Press Workshop at ConClave this year, and may actually be prepared for it!
AND Daughter and I are working on 'artful' boxes for the art show. AND I still hope to complete the eggshell TARDIS to enter.
Meanwhile, work on the back of the house is slow but progressing. Son is dragging his feet because he's convinced that his gf will pay for it. But we put up a pretty good shelter to store all the scraps of lumber in. I'm pleased with that.
I've also been working on the front yard a bit - changing the look of the bushes and weeding. And Son transplanted the unwanted tree from the curbside to the middle of the empty lot.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
State of the Life
Doing okay. I have learned to take more pain pills, because I get around better and faster that way, and the hip definitely needs the exercise and practice. I have learned to take psyllium husks and maltital daily to keep 'things' moving.
Son's business is stalled. I can't blame it on the season - there are just as many leads as before. But perhaps the more experienced people are snatching them up more because they are less busy. I may have to stop the leads for the winter - can't afford $100 a month if we don't get any business.
This is okay for now, but I certainly don't want to do it for years. Son is kind of expecting that I will. I'm hoping that Carrie will just simply fill the void. All of his voids.
He and Daughter are probably going to work for a home for the retarded. Our friend Sarah runs it, and is having difficulty keeping reliable people, especially for overnight. Perfect for Daughter who is up half the night anyway; she can bring her laptop and do the things she would be doing at home without pay.
But things are not moving along for me. No progress on Book, on Tarot Cards, or on Eggurgy. No progress on the back room. And I'm running out of Summer to store my stuff outside in.
Son's business is stalled. I can't blame it on the season - there are just as many leads as before. But perhaps the more experienced people are snatching them up more because they are less busy. I may have to stop the leads for the winter - can't afford $100 a month if we don't get any business.
This is okay for now, but I certainly don't want to do it for years. Son is kind of expecting that I will. I'm hoping that Carrie will just simply fill the void. All of his voids.
He and Daughter are probably going to work for a home for the retarded. Our friend Sarah runs it, and is having difficulty keeping reliable people, especially for overnight. Perfect for Daughter who is up half the night anyway; she can bring her laptop and do the things she would be doing at home without pay.
But things are not moving along for me. No progress on Book, on Tarot Cards, or on Eggurgy. No progress on the back room. And I'm running out of Summer to store my stuff outside in.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Note to Self - Constipation
Don't mess around too long with an enema. If the first one doesn't work, use laxatives. This time I used the one pill each of the two different kinds every 12 hours until I got results, which was three times. I also ate maltitol-sweetened chocolate.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Time!
TIME!
I just have no time!
Anyway, I've licked the constipation. After 5 straight days of enemas, which were barely effective, I bought the strongest laxitives I could find, using two different chemicals, and took doses 12 hours apart, three times. Did the trick. Either that or the maltitol chocolates. Barely in time; I would have called the doctor later that day.
Had my last PT today. Wasn't really into it and my muscles didn't want to cooperate. But overall it has really been worth it. I'm stronger than I've been in years. I really need to get a gym membership.
I just have no time!
Anyway, I've licked the constipation. After 5 straight days of enemas, which were barely effective, I bought the strongest laxitives I could find, using two different chemicals, and took doses 12 hours apart, three times. Did the trick. Either that or the maltitol chocolates. Barely in time; I would have called the doctor later that day.
Had my last PT today. Wasn't really into it and my muscles didn't want to cooperate. But overall it has really been worth it. I'm stronger than I've been in years. I really need to get a gym membership.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Constipation.
Between one incident and the next, I forget the details.
I've been severely constipated - blocked - since Sunday, so this is the fifth day. And I've been trying to figure out what I did to deserve this. I actually improved my diet, eating high-fiber raw vegetables, raisin bran, and potatoes, and almost entirely eliminated sugar.
One of the unfortunate effects of sugar is to make your digestive canal weak. This can be seen in people, usually elderly diabetics, who drool while eating, and/or easily choke on their food. It also affects the entire intestines, making them sluggish and too weak to properly push food along.
So, with the elimination of sugar, why should I be hit with this now?
Sunday and Monday I was not aware enough of what was happening, and ate as usual, so that by Monday evening I was rather sick. Tuesday, I slowed down on my eating, and gave myself an enema. (Yuck.) It was not very effective, but I figured that it would help, and took some caffeine to stimulate the bowel.
No better by Wednesday. I didn't eat all day, took aloe and chlorophyll, and used a Fleet. This had some effect, and I was hopeful, to the extent that I ate some salad and very small potato in the evening. But still not the desired result.
This morning the reason dawned on me - chocolate! I had been eating chocolate nearly every day, and stopped abruptly. Chocolate stimulates the bowel, and the bowel becomes dependent on stimulants! By Sunday, I was really stopped up. Actually, I don't know how long it had been going on, I hadn't had a reason to worry about it.
So today another Fleet, and I'm living on TSF. Truly Sugar Free is candy sweetened with maltitol. Very much maltitol causes diarrhea.
Crossing my fingers.
I've been severely constipated - blocked - since Sunday, so this is the fifth day. And I've been trying to figure out what I did to deserve this. I actually improved my diet, eating high-fiber raw vegetables, raisin bran, and potatoes, and almost entirely eliminated sugar.
One of the unfortunate effects of sugar is to make your digestive canal weak. This can be seen in people, usually elderly diabetics, who drool while eating, and/or easily choke on their food. It also affects the entire intestines, making them sluggish and too weak to properly push food along.
So, with the elimination of sugar, why should I be hit with this now?
Sunday and Monday I was not aware enough of what was happening, and ate as usual, so that by Monday evening I was rather sick. Tuesday, I slowed down on my eating, and gave myself an enema. (Yuck.) It was not very effective, but I figured that it would help, and took some caffeine to stimulate the bowel.
No better by Wednesday. I didn't eat all day, took aloe and chlorophyll, and used a Fleet. This had some effect, and I was hopeful, to the extent that I ate some salad and very small potato in the evening. But still not the desired result.
This morning the reason dawned on me - chocolate! I had been eating chocolate nearly every day, and stopped abruptly. Chocolate stimulates the bowel, and the bowel becomes dependent on stimulants! By Sunday, I was really stopped up. Actually, I don't know how long it had been going on, I hadn't had a reason to worry about it.
So today another Fleet, and I'm living on TSF. Truly Sugar Free is candy sweetened with maltitol. Very much maltitol causes diarrhea.
Crossing my fingers.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
I've been trying to get here since Monday! Too much to do for A Smooth Move.
I've now done two weeks of my last four at physical therapy. I'm doing three sessions a week for this last push, in an attempt to get my leg strong enough for SFX. I'm getting closer all the time, but I'm not sure I'm really going to be crutch-free for volunteering. Endurance isn't the best either, but improving. I'm now up to 8 minutes on the bike, and intend to do 9 tomorrow and 10 minutes all next week. Perhaps 15 the last week?
But diet has been, as always, the biggest problem. Two weeks ago, July 27, I started a good probiotic; GNC's Ultra Probiotic Complex 50 (50 billion cells). Of course, I am now coughing more - that's to be expected and means that it's working. I'm also taking Candida Quick Cleanse, which is an herbal blend.
I have finally cut the sugar entirely, for now anyway, as of Monday. I'm trying for an all-raw-veg day, but can't seem to quite get there. As usual.
Things I ate that were not raw vegetables:
I have *got* to do better! I will work harder on it today.
I've now done two weeks of my last four at physical therapy. I'm doing three sessions a week for this last push, in an attempt to get my leg strong enough for SFX. I'm getting closer all the time, but I'm not sure I'm really going to be crutch-free for volunteering. Endurance isn't the best either, but improving. I'm now up to 8 minutes on the bike, and intend to do 9 tomorrow and 10 minutes all next week. Perhaps 15 the last week?
But diet has been, as always, the biggest problem. Two weeks ago, July 27, I started a good probiotic; GNC's Ultra Probiotic Complex 50 (50 billion cells). Of course, I am now coughing more - that's to be expected and means that it's working. I'm also taking Candida Quick Cleanse, which is an herbal blend.
I have finally cut the sugar entirely, for now anyway, as of Monday. I'm trying for an all-raw-veg day, but can't seem to quite get there. As usual.
Things I ate that were not raw vegetables:
| Monday Crangrape juice Half cup blueberries V8 juice Piece of cooked potato Milk Handful of cashews | Tuesday Crangrape juice Lima beans Fake crab V8 Juice Potato Milk 2 chocolate chips Few cashews | Wednesday Crangrape juice Corn Potato Milk Papaya Non-flour crackers 2 chocolate chips Few cashews |
I have *got* to do better! I will work harder on it today.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Physical Therapy
I never had any PT with the first hip replacement. The surgeon was leery of pushing the joint too fast. He now has an association with a PT team which has offices in the same building, and is in fact under the same 'umbrella' name of Pinnacle Association.
Rather to my surprise, I enjoy my PT session, and enjoy interacting with the two therapists. They're fun. PT is NOT fun, but I'm making progress, and that keeps me going.
I've mostly gone one day a week since May, but starting this week I'm going three times, to get as much out of the month I have left as possible.
The week after my prescription ends, I'll be going to SFX, my ultimate goal in this whole physical thing. If it weren't for the desire to volunteer there, and to be able to walk around (at a rather good clip, at that!) for at least 8 hours a day, I probably wouldn't ever have pushed myself into the operation.
I'm not *actually* walking yet. I do hobble around the house regularly, but any real walking still requires a crutch. Four weeks is still time enough to change that!
Rather to my surprise, I enjoy my PT session, and enjoy interacting with the two therapists. They're fun. PT is NOT fun, but I'm making progress, and that keeps me going.
I've mostly gone one day a week since May, but starting this week I'm going three times, to get as much out of the month I have left as possible.
The week after my prescription ends, I'll be going to SFX, my ultimate goal in this whole physical thing. If it weren't for the desire to volunteer there, and to be able to walk around (at a rather good clip, at that!) for at least 8 hours a day, I probably wouldn't ever have pushed myself into the operation.
I'm not *actually* walking yet. I do hobble around the house regularly, but any real walking still requires a crutch. Four weeks is still time enough to change that!
Friday, July 17, 2009
Time Passages
Wow. I'd forgotten this even existed. I guess that's what I get for starting something new just before a major operation and being away for two or three weeks.
It has now been two and a half months since Hip Replacement 2. I'm doing well - almost walking. I frequently move from room to room without the crutch now.
I think that physical therapy has probably been valuable, but I'm not sure I wouldn't have been progressing on the same schedule - walking, climbing stairs, etc. The major thing is that it works muscles that I would not have, and I think I'm probably building muscle that I would not have. At least I am specifically trying to.
I worked on the 'bike' for five minutes this Tuesday. I did not expect it to be so hard; I barely got through it, and that was with three rest breaks! I burned a whole 21 calories! I'm looking forward to doing more of that and seeing how much I can improve, since it gives actually numbers to measure progress.
Nutritionally, I haven't been doing nearly as well as I should. I went on a major chocolate binge which really set me back, but thanks to 5-Hour Energy and Hoodia, I'm doing better again. Hoodia really *does* suppress appatite for me, and energy is what I'm seeking when I turn to chocolate.
It has now been two and a half months since Hip Replacement 2. I'm doing well - almost walking. I frequently move from room to room without the crutch now.
I think that physical therapy has probably been valuable, but I'm not sure I wouldn't have been progressing on the same schedule - walking, climbing stairs, etc. The major thing is that it works muscles that I would not have, and I think I'm probably building muscle that I would not have. At least I am specifically trying to.
I worked on the 'bike' for five minutes this Tuesday. I did not expect it to be so hard; I barely got through it, and that was with three rest breaks! I burned a whole 21 calories! I'm looking forward to doing more of that and seeing how much I can improve, since it gives actually numbers to measure progress.
Nutritionally, I haven't been doing nearly as well as I should. I went on a major chocolate binge which really set me back, but thanks to 5-Hour Energy and Hoodia, I'm doing better again. Hoodia really *does* suppress appatite for me, and energy is what I'm seeking when I turn to chocolate.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
So I am not in the hospital. Non-specific, low-grade urinary tract infection. He will *try* to get me in next week.
From my list:
For the surgery/hospital:
Establish what nursing home I'm using.
- Call the 'expiditer' about that.
Get bloodwork done at a Qwest labs.
Go to hospital for pre-admission exam.
Go to regular doctor for medical clearance.
Be totally off sugar, and yeast-free.
Get house set up:
Get Mary's potty chair which will fit over the downstairs toilet to make it higher.
Make and freeze meals ahead
Have the kitchen clean and organized.
Make bed as well as shower and wash hair the night before.
Make sure all bills are paid, and everything on budget.
Make files for all doctor and nursing home records
Find my yellow cushion that they gave me last time.
Equipment to take with me:
Sock puller
2-foot shoehorn
Reacher
Dressing stick
Crutches
Granola
Supplements and aspirin
2 waist purses and cloth grocery bag, for carrying stuff
Cell phone
Reading glasses
Skin care, nail file, tweezers, mirror
Clothes for 8 days
Feather pillow
Entertainment:
Books - some series
Puzzles
Playing cards for solitaire
Tarot card lists to work on my deck
So a lot of important stuff didn't get done. Will I be better prepared next week? I doubt it.
From my list:
For the surgery/hospital:
- Call the 'expiditer' about that.
Get bloodwork done at a Qwest labs.
Go to hospital for pre-admission exam.
Go to regular doctor for medical clearance.
Be totally off sugar, and yeast-free.
Get house set up:
Make and freeze meals ahead
Have the kitchen clean and organized.
Make sure all bills are paid, and everything on budget.
Make files for all doctor and nursing home records
Find my yellow cushion that they gave me last time.
Equipment to take with me:
2-foot shoehorn
Reacher
Dressing stick
Granola
Supplements and aspirin
2 waist purses and cloth grocery bag, for carrying stuff
Cell phone
Reading glasses
Skin care, nail file, tweezers, mirror
Clothes for 8 days
Feather pillow
Entertainment:
Books - some series
Playing cards for solitaire
Tarot card lists to work on my deck
So a lot of important stuff didn't get done. Will I be better prepared next week? I doubt it.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Haven't done much on my list, other than the hospital pre-admission tests. Have to get some things done around the house, with Son home.
I *have* resolved to try to build up more physical strength in the two weeks I have left. I know I can't do a whole lot toward it - I just don't gain muscle - but every little bit helps.
I'm pretty good on the sugar, but can't afford my FiveLac right now.
I *have* resolved to try to build up more physical strength in the two weeks I have left. I know I can't do a whole lot toward it - I just don't gain muscle - but every little bit helps.
I'm pretty good on the sugar, but can't afford my FiveLac right now.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Things to do before surgery
For the surgery/hospital:
Establish what nursing home I'm using.
- Call the 'expiditer' about that.
Get bloodwork done at a Qwest labs.
Go to hospital for pre-admission exam.
Go to regular doctor for medical clearance.
Be totally off sugar, and yeast-free.
Get house set up:
Get Mary's potty chair which will fit over the downstairs toilet to make it higher.
Make and freeze meals ahead
Have the kitchen clean and organized.
Make bed as well as shower and wash hair the night before.
Make sure all bills are paid, and everything on budget.
Make files for all doctor and nursing home records
Find my yellow cushion that they gave me last time.
Equipment to take with me:
Sock puller
2-foot shoehorn
Reacher
Dressing stick
Crutches
Granola
Supplements and aspirin
2 waist purses and cloth grocery bag, for carrying stuff
Cell phone
Reading glasses
Skin care, nail file, tweezers, mirror
Clothes for 8 days
Feather pillow
Entertainment:
Books - some series
Puzzles
Playing cards for solitaire
Tarot card lists to work on my deck
I'd also like to make bags to hang on the crutches for carrying things.
All I have to do now is get busy and *do* this stuff!
Establish what nursing home I'm using.
- Call the 'expiditer' about that.
Get bloodwork done at a Qwest labs.
Go to hospital for pre-admission exam.
Go to regular doctor for medical clearance.
Be totally off sugar, and yeast-free.
Get house set up:
Get Mary's potty chair which will fit over the downstairs toilet to make it higher.
Make and freeze meals ahead
Have the kitchen clean and organized.
Make bed as well as shower and wash hair the night before.
Make sure all bills are paid, and everything on budget.
Make files for all doctor and nursing home records
Find my yellow cushion that they gave me last time.
Equipment to take with me:
Sock puller
2-foot shoehorn
Reacher
Dressing stick
Crutches
Granola
Supplements and aspirin
2 waist purses and cloth grocery bag, for carrying stuff
Cell phone
Reading glasses
Skin care, nail file, tweezers, mirror
Clothes for 8 days
Feather pillow
Entertainment:
Books - some series
Puzzles
Playing cards for solitaire
Tarot card lists to work on my deck
I'd also like to make bags to hang on the crutches for carrying things.
All I have to do now is get busy and *do* this stuff!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Coming up for air. And light.
I seem to be coming up again. It always feels like walking into sunlight from a dense fog - all of a sudden I can see, and doing things seems possible. Although I don't really feel like I'm in a fog when I'm *in* it.
I'm getting better and better with my diet. I did a whole-raw day last week and felt really wonderful, comparatively. Then I rewarded myself with chocolate.
As always, it isn't the chocolate *that* day - it's the twice-as-much-chocolate the next day. But I caught myself again, had a good day, then had a no-sugar-no-flour day yesterday, and today I'm doing raw again.
Heh. The sun just came out. Hello!
Right now I'm eating my cashew/vegetable salad. It doesn't really have that much cashew in it, I just call it that to distinguish it from other salads. I haven't made it in, probably, a year. Chopped up cauliflower, carrot, celery, and whatever else. In this case raw peas and baby corn. Then the chopped cashews, and all slathered with Miracle Whip. NOT 'salad dressing'! Not even the namby-pamby stuff that comes home from the market. MY Miracle Whip sits out on the counter and gets nice and sour. Can you say Tangy Zip?
I'm working on the house again. Finally. I've figured out a way to light the decorative endcap shelves that I got stuck on last November.
You can't tell here that I'm up on the top of a 2 1/2 foot ladder. (Yes, my hip *does* feel better. Why do you ask?) First I used a router to make a trench in the back wall of the shelves; I had to wind it around in order to make the lights come out in the right places, since I didn't want to cut/splice the cord. Then drilled a hole *just* big enough for the light socket to stick into it, and judiciously applied staples to make it stay.
... testing ...
Yep, they light up. Maybe tomorrow I'll actually put up the shelf unit.
I'm getting better and better with my diet. I did a whole-raw day last week and felt really wonderful, comparatively. Then I rewarded myself with chocolate.
As always, it isn't the chocolate *that* day - it's the twice-as-much-chocolate the next day. But I caught myself again, had a good day, then had a no-sugar-no-flour day yesterday, and today I'm doing raw again.
Heh. The sun just came out. Hello!
Right now I'm eating my cashew/vegetable salad. It doesn't really have that much cashew in it, I just call it that to distinguish it from other salads. I haven't made it in, probably, a year. Chopped up cauliflower, carrot, celery, and whatever else. In this case raw peas and baby corn. Then the chopped cashews, and all slathered with Miracle Whip. NOT 'salad dressing'! Not even the namby-pamby stuff that comes home from the market. MY Miracle Whip sits out on the counter and gets nice and sour. Can you say Tangy Zip?
I'm working on the house again. Finally. I've figured out a way to light the decorative endcap shelves that I got stuck on last November.
You can't tell here that I'm up on the top of a 2 1/2 foot ladder. (Yes, my hip *does* feel better. Why do you ask?) First I used a router to make a trench in the back wall of the shelves; I had to wind it around in order to make the lights come out in the right places, since I didn't want to cut/splice the cord. Then drilled a hole *just* big enough for the light socket to stick into it, and judiciously applied staples to make it stay.
... testing ...
Yep, they light up. Maybe tomorrow I'll actually put up the shelf unit.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Sunday Update
I managed to get an earlier appointment with Huckell, which means a much greater chance of getting the hip replacement in soon enough. I'll know more on Tuesday, but Colleen's wedding is May 16th, and I must be able to get to that.
My diet has improved enough that I'm sure I'll be able to do what I need to do in that department. Obviously, eating sweet would slow down healing too much, but I'm going to be able to eliminate that. I haven't had sweet (except for the minimal amount in my granola) for days.
I'm feeling better. I know the yeast problem is still serious though, and am worried that I haven't been able to get more FiveLac in time. I'll be ordering it soon, but as of today, I'm out of it.
The money situation is bad this month. Between having to replace Daughter's laptop, sending money to Son, Hubby not having overtime, getting the fancy tub for Hubby, spending a lot on supplements - we're shorter on money than we've been in years.
I want to build a carport. We need it, both to eventually be able to park the car in it in the winter, and to store building materials now, to get them out of the way of fixing the back room. Time, money, health. I have some 2x4s and cement blocks, so I will get started as soon as I can persuade Carlos to do some digging. But I'm not sure when I'll be able to buy the plywood.
The living room is sort of clean, the kitchen is staying organized enough, and the dining room table is available. The tub is taking up most of the back room, though.
My diet has improved enough that I'm sure I'll be able to do what I need to do in that department. Obviously, eating sweet would slow down healing too much, but I'm going to be able to eliminate that. I haven't had sweet (except for the minimal amount in my granola) for days.
I'm feeling better. I know the yeast problem is still serious though, and am worried that I haven't been able to get more FiveLac in time. I'll be ordering it soon, but as of today, I'm out of it.
The money situation is bad this month. Between having to replace Daughter's laptop, sending money to Son, Hubby not having overtime, getting the fancy tub for Hubby, spending a lot on supplements - we're shorter on money than we've been in years.
I want to build a carport. We need it, both to eventually be able to park the car in it in the winter, and to store building materials now, to get them out of the way of fixing the back room. Time, money, health. I have some 2x4s and cement blocks, so I will get started as soon as I can persuade Carlos to do some digging. But I'm not sure when I'll be able to buy the plywood.
The living room is sort of clean, the kitchen is staying organized enough, and the dining room table is available. The tub is taking up most of the back room, though.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Progress
Is it finally beginning to pay off? MUCH less mucous this morning. My eyes are not bleary and running, my nose isn't congested. Not to say that the yeast is gone, but this is progress! And now I'm all but out of FiveLac. I have to order some, but I'm also out of money. Life is like that.
I expect to get some gardening done today, if Carlos doesn't fail me.Have to go grocery shopping. No, don't talk about grocery shopping; that is not progress, just drudgery.
Made more progress on my book.
I expect to get some gardening done today, if Carlos doesn't fail me.
Made more progress on my book.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Evaluation
I am realizing that I need to take the FiveLac more at night. I've been doing two units of it in the morning, but I wake up with worse yeast every day than I had going to bed. I need to kill it overnight.
Sleeping pretty good. Got up once last night, then slept like a log until 9:30.
I've been ingesting very little sugar, so the results are disheartening. I'm going to have to get down to raw eventually, I think. I just can't face it right now.
In other news, the writing group is doing it's job. I'm actually working on my book.
Sleeping pretty good. Got up once last night, then slept like a log until 9:30.
I've been ingesting very little sugar, so the results are disheartening. I'm going to have to get down to raw eventually, I think. I just can't face it right now.
In other news, the writing group is doing it's job. I'm actually working on my book.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Sunday Update - On Sunday!
Can't say I've exactly shaken up my life yet. I *do* seem to be actually losing weight though. And I *have* made doctor's appointments.
New discovery: I haven't taken any pain reliever for quite a while, probably not this year at all. Without being able to actually *do* anything, I didn't feel much in need. And since I've been using the two crutches, my hip hasn't hurt suddenly out of the blue while I'm sleeping.
On Friday night, I decided that I really wanted to sleep and took an aspirin and an Advil (ibuprophen). I not only slept well, on Saturday I suddenly had more ambition and my hip didn't bother as much as it had been. I even used only one crutch for much of the day.
So on Saturday night, I decided to take pain reliever again. This time I took acetominophin and ibuprophen. And I woke up about 4:00 am with terrible pain in my hip!
I expect I won't be taking any more acetominophin!
New discovery: I haven't taken any pain reliever for quite a while, probably not this year at all. Without being able to actually *do* anything, I didn't feel much in need. And since I've been using the two crutches, my hip hasn't hurt suddenly out of the blue while I'm sleeping.
On Friday night, I decided that I really wanted to sleep and took an aspirin and an Advil (ibuprophen). I not only slept well, on Saturday I suddenly had more ambition and my hip didn't bother as much as it had been. I even used only one crutch for much of the day.
So on Saturday night, I decided to take pain reliever again. This time I took acetominophin and ibuprophen. And I woke up about 4:00 am with terrible pain in my hip!
I expect I won't be taking any more acetominophin!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Sleeping
Okay, here I am again. Can't seem to get here more than once a week. Haven't posted on LJ in forever. Ooops! I was supposed to today! It'll have to be good enough tomorrow. I forgot ...
I forget everything!
But I've basically decided that the truest test of how I'm doing is how I'm sleeping. Lots of things can get in the way of a good night's sleep. If sugar is too high, there's getting up 3 or four times for urination. If the brain is too active, I toss and turn, and end up getting up. If the hip or other things hurt, then I can't stay in one position long enough to rest properly.
So. Last night was a success. I got up only once and the rest of the night I slept like a log. Right through the alarm this morning. Okay, it was a qualified success. Especially compared to the previous night in which I got up twice and tossed all night.
Today made the third sugarless day in a row.
I forget everything!
But I've basically decided that the truest test of how I'm doing is how I'm sleeping. Lots of things can get in the way of a good night's sleep. If sugar is too high, there's getting up 3 or four times for urination. If the brain is too active, I toss and turn, and end up getting up. If the hip or other things hurt, then I can't stay in one position long enough to rest properly.
So. Last night was a success. I got up only once and the rest of the night I slept like a log. Right through the alarm this morning. Okay, it was a qualified success. Especially compared to the previous night in which I got up twice and tossed all night.
Today made the third sugarless day in a row.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Okay, this wasn't supposed to be just about my physical health. What about everything else?
The sad fact is that I can't really do what I want until the house is in order. I'm really pushing on that, and Daughter is helping. The living room is now pretty decent, for the first time through, as is the sewing room. The kitchen isn't bad, though it needs work. The dining room is coming along. We worked on it a little today. Being on crutches does inhibit rapid progress.
*sigh* So it *does* come down to physical wellbeing.
My personal psychic, Rev. Patti, recommended the following daily:
4 oz Georges Aloe Vera juice
4 tsp Liquid Chlorphyl
4 drops Oil of Oregonal
I've actually been using only half that much, for various reasons: money, squeamishness over bad tastes, and the fact that things usually work twice as effectively on me.
So I'm taking this in conjunction with the probiotics. It appears to be working very well. TMI - but no one is reading this anyway - the bowel movements have drawn *much* closer to 'normal'. And I feel a whole lot better. This is not a help to the hip, but in terms of ambition, positive outlook, and general wellbeing, I feel much better.
The sad fact is that I can't really do what I want until the house is in order. I'm really pushing on that, and Daughter is helping. The living room is now pretty decent, for the first time through, as is the sewing room. The kitchen isn't bad, though it needs work. The dining room is coming along. We worked on it a little today. Being on crutches does inhibit rapid progress.
*sigh* So it *does* come down to physical wellbeing.
My personal psychic, Rev. Patti, recommended the following daily:
4 oz Georges Aloe Vera juice
4 tsp Liquid Chlorphyl
4 drops Oil of Oregonal
I've actually been using only half that much, for various reasons: money, squeamishness over bad tastes, and the fact that things usually work twice as effectively on me.
So I'm taking this in conjunction with the probiotics. It appears to be working very well. TMI - but no one is reading this anyway - the bowel movements have drawn *much* closer to 'normal'. And I feel a whole lot better. This is not a help to the hip, but in terms of ambition, positive outlook, and general wellbeing, I feel much better.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Pain in My Neck
Literally.
I actually have an excuse for not documenting for a week. I've been in waaaaay too much pain!
It started on Monday with arthritis/bursitis in my left shoulder; bad enough that I couldn't raise my arm. This continued through Tuesday.
On Wednesday I woke up with a 'crick' in my neck. It was very bad, but I tried to not let it keep me from doing things. I slept carefully, and it was better Thursday morning.
During the day, I helped Daughter get ready for our Writer's Meetup, which was being held here. By the time the meeting was over, I was in agony. Both Hubby and Daughter worked on it, but without real success.
Friday it was better, then awful again in the evening. Saturday the same thing, so that I could barely function for A's game night. And better Sunday morning, awful by night time. Sunday I did grocery shopping, which I could barely get through, even though I was using a Mart Cart. And Sunday night it was so bad that I couldn't sleep it better.
Monday I stayed in bed late and didn't do much of anything all day. Monday night I slept. I got up after 3:00 pm on Tuesday.
It's much better. As Prim (internet friend) pointed out, using the crutches is hard on those muscles. Staying off my feet is helping a lot. In fact, I actually thought this morning that it might be gone. It isn't, but I have hope that it may be tomorrow.
I'm counting myself incredibly lucky that Hubby is off work this week, so that I don't have to do my usual running.
Other things which may be helping: The nutritional formula that Rev. Patti gave me; lots of calcium and magnesium; lots and lots of nsaids, both by mouth and topically; staying off sugar.
I actually have an excuse for not documenting for a week. I've been in waaaaay too much pain!
It started on Monday with arthritis/bursitis in my left shoulder; bad enough that I couldn't raise my arm. This continued through Tuesday.
On Wednesday I woke up with a 'crick' in my neck. It was very bad, but I tried to not let it keep me from doing things. I slept carefully, and it was better Thursday morning.
During the day, I helped Daughter get ready for our Writer's Meetup, which was being held here. By the time the meeting was over, I was in agony. Both Hubby and Daughter worked on it, but without real success.
Friday it was better, then awful again in the evening. Saturday the same thing, so that I could barely function for A's game night. And better Sunday morning, awful by night time. Sunday I did grocery shopping, which I could barely get through, even though I was using a Mart Cart. And Sunday night it was so bad that I couldn't sleep it better.
Monday I stayed in bed late and didn't do much of anything all day. Monday night I slept. I got up after 3:00 pm on Tuesday.
It's much better. As Prim (internet friend) pointed out, using the crutches is hard on those muscles. Staying off my feet is helping a lot. In fact, I actually thought this morning that it might be gone. It isn't, but I have hope that it may be tomorrow.
I'm counting myself incredibly lucky that Hubby is off work this week, so that I don't have to do my usual running.
Other things which may be helping: The nutritional formula that Rev. Patti gave me; lots of calcium and magnesium; lots and lots of nsaids, both by mouth and topically; staying off sugar.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Sunday Update! Ha!
It's pretty much a sure thing that when I forget/neglect to post it's either because I'm feeling very bad or feeling very good.
It's been very bad.
The '10 teaspoons of sugar' was a very bad idea. That alone would have been bad, but I escalated. Yesterday I had a Boston Creme doughnut, a banana with sugar and cream, and 5 chocolate creme candies.
And this morning I had congested throat, runny nose, blurry and sandy eyes. Even my teeth were coated! Also, arthritis/bursitis in my shoulder so that I could hardly move my arm all day.
On the up side, using two crutches almost all the time has indeed lessened the pain in my left hip.
It's been very bad.
The '10 teaspoons of sugar' was a very bad idea. That alone would have been bad, but I escalated. Yesterday I had a Boston Creme doughnut, a banana with sugar and cream, and 5 chocolate creme candies.
And this morning I had congested throat, runny nose, blurry and sandy eyes. Even my teeth were coated! Also, arthritis/bursitis in my shoulder so that I could hardly move my arm all day.
On the up side, using two crutches almost all the time has indeed lessened the pain in my left hip.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Backsliding
Okay, I shouldn't have done it. After the first Bavarian Creme doughnut which didn't hurt anything, and then the dark chocolate, which was probably a good thing (in small doses), I bought a kuchen and ate the whole thing. No, *not* in one day! I took three days about it! But it was definitely bad.
What have I learned? An occassional Barvarian Creme is okay. Just don't bring it home with you. And a little bit of dark chocolate every day is okay, as long as it remains a little bit.
Trying for a totally 'clean' day today.
So after a great day yesterday, I ended up tripping to the bathroom during the night, and find myself a bit slow and bleary eyed today. My hip is also slightly worse, but that could be more due to using only one crutch going to the movie and writer's meeting yesterday.
Also, I'm now taking three FiveLac doses per day, two in the morning; and the Candex has arrived.
The Candex requires no eating for two hours before and one hour afterward. Since this just isn't happening, I'm taking it when I get up in the middle of the night. I've now done that twice.
What have I learned? An occassional Barvarian Creme is okay. Just don't bring it home with you. And a little bit of dark chocolate every day is okay, as long as it remains a little bit.
Trying for a totally 'clean' day today.
So after a great day yesterday, I ended up tripping to the bathroom during the night, and find myself a bit slow and bleary eyed today. My hip is also slightly worse, but that could be more due to using only one crutch going to the movie and writer's meeting yesterday.
Also, I'm now taking three FiveLac doses per day, two in the morning; and the Candex has arrived.
The Candex requires no eating for two hours before and one hour afterward. Since this just isn't happening, I'm taking it when I get up in the middle of the night. I've now done that twice.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
FiveLac, Day Four
I didn't take a second dose last night. I forgot to do it before eating, and wanted to go up to bed early. It would be a waste of expensive product to use it after eating.
I ordered Candex with my next FiveLac order. Candex is supposed to eat away the outer shell of Candida, weakening it so that the probiotics can kill it more easily. It's also supposed to lessen the amount of toxins released into your blood during die-off.
I also need a good antioxydent, because Candida releases a lot of free radicals, especially during die-off; but I already had a bottle of açai berry pills, which are supposed to be about the best. I'll need to decide which way to go on a permanent basis.
I also decided to humor my lust for chocolate. If I can have 10 t. of sugar a day, a 'serving' of dark chocolate is less than half of that.
No particular changes from yesterday morning, except that I think my right calf is beginning to feel better. I even did some mild exersise - 100 steps. 'Normal' is 300, done much more energetically.
I ordered Candex with my next FiveLac order. Candex is supposed to eat away the outer shell of Candida, weakening it so that the probiotics can kill it more easily. It's also supposed to lessen the amount of toxins released into your blood during die-off.
I also need a good antioxydent, because Candida releases a lot of free radicals, especially during die-off; but I already had a bottle of açai berry pills, which are supposed to be about the best. I'll need to decide which way to go on a permanent basis.
I also decided to humor my lust for chocolate. If I can have 10 t. of sugar a day, a 'serving' of dark chocolate is less than half of that.
No particular changes from yesterday morning, except that I think my right calf is beginning to feel better. I even did some mild exersise - 100 steps. 'Normal' is 300, done much more energetically.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Results!
I already have less nose running and stuffiness, and less coughing! I didn't expect such dramatic results so soon. The several middle-of-the-night sessions in the bathroom were less pleasant consequences.
But I'll keep up the 2-doses-per-day, at least for now, and see what happens. I think I need even more bulk though, and I guess I'll get raisin bran.
The literature that came with the products suggested limiting sugar intake to 10 teaspoons per day. *giggles hysterically* That sounds like pure luxury to me! I've been eating none, and they're saying I could have a doughnut or 2 oz of chocolate ice cream! So I guess I can get away with a small bowl of raisin bran.
But I'll keep up the 2-doses-per-day, at least for now, and see what happens. I think I need even more bulk though, and I guess I'll get raisin bran.
The literature that came with the products suggested limiting sugar intake to 10 teaspoons per day. *giggles hysterically* That sounds like pure luxury to me! I've been eating none, and they're saying I could have a doughnut or 2 oz of chocolate ice cream! So I guess I can get away with a small bowl of raisin bran.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Sunday Evaluation
Seems like a good idea to do a weekly evaluation, and maybe I'll remember Sundays. Ha!
Plan
I've re-thought the number of doses of FiveLac to take. I feel so lousy now that I can barely get anything done. I may as well be significantly worse if it will mean getting better sooner.
Symptoms
Yesterday I attempted a minor wiring repair. I had Hubby move the desk so that I could get at a light switch box which I suspected had other wiring behind it. It didn't, but in the process a switch wire pulled loose. I had to go down cellar to turn off the circuit breaker, come back up, fix the wire, and then have Hubby put the desk back. Back down cellar to turn electricity back on, and then discovered that the wiring wasn't fixed, and the light wouldn't turn on. I have to re-do the whole thing today, over something that didn't need fixing in the first place.
And on top of that, I couldn't get down the cellar stairs without both crutches. Of course, a large part of the problem is the wrenched right calf, which nearly two weeks later is still not cooperating properly. I have to wonder whether the yeast is part of the reason for the slow recovery. It just shouldn't still be dibillitating.
But that means: 1) Left hip still requires crutch help, 2) Right calf still requires crutch help, and 3) Brain isn't working right, in spite of improvement with B vitamins and SAMe.
Process
Probiotics need to be taken on an empty stomach so that nothing keeps it from going through to the intestine. So I'm taking a dose first thing in the morning.
That will mean FiveLac and 1/2 t. LacLo (silium husks with nice flavor) in 3 oz of orange juice followed by a raw vegetable chaser, to help move it along.
Plan
I've re-thought the number of doses of FiveLac to take. I feel so lousy now that I can barely get anything done. I may as well be significantly worse if it will mean getting better sooner.
Symptoms
Yesterday I attempted a minor wiring repair. I had Hubby move the desk so that I could get at a light switch box which I suspected had other wiring behind it. It didn't, but in the process a switch wire pulled loose. I had to go down cellar to turn off the circuit breaker, come back up, fix the wire, and then have Hubby put the desk back. Back down cellar to turn electricity back on, and then discovered that the wiring wasn't fixed, and the light wouldn't turn on. I have to re-do the whole thing today, over something that didn't need fixing in the first place.
And on top of that, I couldn't get down the cellar stairs without both crutches. Of course, a large part of the problem is the wrenched right calf, which nearly two weeks later is still not cooperating properly. I have to wonder whether the yeast is part of the reason for the slow recovery. It just shouldn't still be dibillitating.
But that means: 1) Left hip still requires crutch help, 2) Right calf still requires crutch help, and 3) Brain isn't working right, in spite of improvement with B vitamins and SAMe.
Process
Probiotics need to be taken on an empty stomach so that nothing keeps it from going through to the intestine. So I'm taking a dose first thing in the morning.
That will mean FiveLac and 1/2 t. LacLo (silium husks with nice flavor) in 3 oz of orange juice followed by a raw vegetable chaser, to help move it along.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
FiveLac Day One
The FiveLac order came today, so I can start this yeast killing protocol. I originally intended to double up on the dosage and get it over with quickly, but on reading more material, I've decided not to do that.
First, I have it *really* bad. And second, I got FiveLac, not ThreeLac. FiveLac is expected to be about 1.5 times more effective. What I didn't realize is that as a yeast cell dies, it releases it's toxins into the bloodstream. In other words, killing them off will be more painful than living with them. The hip pain should be considerably worse for at least two weeks.
So I'll take it slow, at the pace recommended.
First, I have it *really* bad. And second, I got FiveLac, not ThreeLac. FiveLac is expected to be about 1.5 times more effective. What I didn't realize is that as a yeast cell dies, it releases it's toxins into the bloodstream. In other words, killing them off will be more painful than living with them. The hip pain should be considerably worse for at least two weeks.
So I'll take it slow, at the pace recommended.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Symptoms of Yeast Overgrowth
All of these things can be symptoms that you have yeast overgrowth.
Fatigue or lethargy - Feeling of being "drained
Poor memory - Feeling "spacey" or "unreal"
Inability to make decisions
Numbness, burning or tingling
Insomnia
Prostatitis
Muscle aches - Muscle weakness or paralysis
Pain and/or swelling in joints
Abdominal pain
Constipation - Diarrhea - Bloating, belching or intestinal gas
Troublesome vaginal burning, itching or discharge
Loss of sexual desire or feeling, or impotence
Endometriosis or infertility
Cramps and/or other menstrual irregularities
Premenstrual tension
Attacks of anxiety or crying
Cold hands or feet and/or chilliness
Some foods disagree with you or trigger your symptoms
Skin itch, tingle, burning, dryness, rashes
Worse on damp, muggy days or in moldy places
Crave sugar, pop, breads, alcoholic beverages
Unusually sensitive to odors: tobacco smoke, perfumes, insecticides, colognes and other chemical odors
http://www.stopyeast.com/questionnaire.html
Fatigue or lethargy - Feeling of being "drained
Poor memory - Feeling "spacey" or "unreal"
Inability to make decisions
Numbness, burning or tingling
Insomnia
Prostatitis
Muscle aches - Muscle weakness or paralysis
Pain and/or swelling in joints
Abdominal pain
Constipation - Diarrhea - Bloating, belching or intestinal gas
Troublesome vaginal burning, itching or discharge
Loss of sexual desire or feeling, or impotence
Endometriosis or infertility
Cramps and/or other menstrual irregularities
Premenstrual tension
Attacks of anxiety or crying
Cold hands or feet and/or chilliness
Some foods disagree with you or trigger your symptoms
Skin itch, tingle, burning, dryness, rashes
Worse on damp, muggy days or in moldy places
Crave sugar, pop, breads, alcoholic beverages
Unusually sensitive to odors: tobacco smoke, perfumes, insecticides, colognes and other chemical odors
http://www.stopyeast.com/questionnaire.html
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Yeast Infection
If my memory had been better, I never would have been in this fix. There are so many things I have known in the past that I have totally forgotten. Like the B vitamins. Today's culprit: Candida.
The process goes like this:
1. Candida Albacans is a natural part of your intestinal flora, which is held in check by pro-biotics such as acidophilus and bifidus.
2. When you take an antibiotic for any length of time, Candida morphs from it's yeast state to a fungal state. (This one I never knew before.) It can hide in your system for years without symptoms. This form is resistant to the probiotics, although it does eventually succumb.
3. This fungal Candida burrows into the wall of your intestines. After a while, it actually allows fluids (and toxic stuff) to leak directly out into your blood, attacking your joints and leading to arthritis.
3. In order to get rid of Candida, you have to approach it from two directions - deprive it of food, and kill it off with something. One approach alone won't do it. Believe me, I've tried.
a. Starve it: Don't eat any sugared food including fruit. Don't eat any high carb foods and especially foods that can grow mold. In other words bread and cooked vegetables. So what does that leave to eat? Meat and raw vegetables. Yep.
b. Kill it: At the same time, take massive probiotics.
Now, I have been doing a and b for several weeks. And I *am* better. But it has just seemed impossible to keep it up long enough. I've just discovered something else which I may have known at one point but had forgotten.
Probiotics seldom survive your stomach.
Where they are most needed is in the intestines. That's where the yeast is living, eating, hiding. It may well be in other places in your system also, but the intestine is the big deal.
So anyhow, the primary probiotic for an advanced yeast infection is ThreeLac from Global Health Trax. They have the exclusive distributorship outside of Japan, where it was developed. Each grain of this probiotic is coated in a way to keep it protected through the stomach and release it in the intestines.
Daughter and I took ThreeLac a few years ago, and it was indeed very effective. Also very expensive. We didn't keep it up, or use it as it should have been, simply because we didn't have the money.
Now we do.
So I have ordered - well, not ThreeLac. They have a new one now called FiveLac, and it's on the way. I didn't order from GHT though. I found a couple in the midwest who have battled yeast all their lives, found answers, and promote health on the internet. Their address is: http://www.stopyeast.com/. They include instructions and advice along with selling you the product. And they don't make much on it.
A problem, however, with rapidly killing off the yeast is that the dead yeast floats around in your system. It's necessary to take a LOT of fiber to wash it out. So I've also ordered a stuff called LocLo. Total order: $86. I'll let you know how it works.
The process goes like this:
1. Candida Albacans is a natural part of your intestinal flora, which is held in check by pro-biotics such as acidophilus and bifidus.
2. When you take an antibiotic for any length of time, Candida morphs from it's yeast state to a fungal state. (This one I never knew before.) It can hide in your system for years without symptoms. This form is resistant to the probiotics, although it does eventually succumb.
3. This fungal Candida burrows into the wall of your intestines. After a while, it actually allows fluids (and toxic stuff) to leak directly out into your blood, attacking your joints and leading to arthritis.
3. In order to get rid of Candida, you have to approach it from two directions - deprive it of food, and kill it off with something. One approach alone won't do it. Believe me, I've tried.
a. Starve it: Don't eat any sugared food including fruit. Don't eat any high carb foods and especially foods that can grow mold. In other words bread and cooked vegetables. So what does that leave to eat? Meat and raw vegetables. Yep.
b. Kill it: At the same time, take massive probiotics.
Now, I have been doing a and b for several weeks. And I *am* better. But it has just seemed impossible to keep it up long enough. I've just discovered something else which I may have known at one point but had forgotten.
Probiotics seldom survive your stomach.
Where they are most needed is in the intestines. That's where the yeast is living, eating, hiding. It may well be in other places in your system also, but the intestine is the big deal.
So anyhow, the primary probiotic for an advanced yeast infection is ThreeLac from Global Health Trax. They have the exclusive distributorship outside of Japan, where it was developed. Each grain of this probiotic is coated in a way to keep it protected through the stomach and release it in the intestines.
Daughter and I took ThreeLac a few years ago, and it was indeed very effective. Also very expensive. We didn't keep it up, or use it as it should have been, simply because we didn't have the money.
Now we do.
So I have ordered - well, not ThreeLac. They have a new one now called FiveLac, and it's on the way. I didn't order from GHT though. I found a couple in the midwest who have battled yeast all their lives, found answers, and promote health on the internet. Their address is: http://www.stopyeast.com/. They include instructions and advice along with selling you the product. And they don't make much on it.
A problem, however, with rapidly killing off the yeast is that the dead yeast floats around in your system. It's necessary to take a LOT of fiber to wash it out. So I've also ordered a stuff called LocLo. Total order: $86. I'll let you know how it works.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Improvements
Over the last week, I have done a lot of organizing, put down more floor tiles in Daughter's kitchen, cleaned the freezer and refrigerator, and reorganized the laundry and hall including assembling storage units.
Why the sudden resurgence of energy?
My left hip is just as bad. I'm not sure my brain is working better. I fell on Tuesday and twisted my right leg so that I can barely put weight on it (better today, finally). My blood sugar is no different; I'm certainly not sleeping better. Yet I'm getting things done, in spite of heavy demands on my time by the helpless around me.
I was reading (in Dr. Hyman's UltraThyroid) that the body requires B vitamines to make SAMe. I knew that SAMe is an issue for me from past experience. I can't think properly without it. I also know that you can't get a toxic dose of Bs because they're water-soluble. So, in spite of the fact that I have been regularly taking B and haven't been depressed, I took a handful (8) on Thursday last week.
There were two almost immediate results. One is the increase in energy, the other is that the raw vegetables I'm trying to get myself to eat suddenly taste better.
Hmm. I think I'll go take a mega-dose again now.
Why the sudden resurgence of energy?
My left hip is just as bad. I'm not sure my brain is working better. I fell on Tuesday and twisted my right leg so that I can barely put weight on it (better today, finally). My blood sugar is no different; I'm certainly not sleeping better. Yet I'm getting things done, in spite of heavy demands on my time by the helpless around me.
I was reading (in Dr. Hyman's UltraThyroid) that the body requires B vitamines to make SAMe. I knew that SAMe is an issue for me from past experience. I can't think properly without it. I also know that you can't get a toxic dose of Bs because they're water-soluble. So, in spite of the fact that I have been regularly taking B and haven't been depressed, I took a handful (8) on Thursday last week.
There were two almost immediate results. One is the increase in energy, the other is that the raw vegetables I'm trying to get myself to eat suddenly taste better.
Hmm. I think I'll go take a mega-dose again now.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Self-evaluation, continued
Part 4: Physical Strength
1. My arms are stronger than my legs, proportionately. This is not good, since they aren't as strong as I would wish, and my legs used to be very strong. But they aren't in need of anything particularly.
2. Legs are bad. Even my 'stong' right leg wears out in the course of doing one grocery stop. This may not be fixable without doing the hip replacement first.
3. Left hip: Jury's still out. It *has* improved a lot since I stopped eating white bread last week. Whether it can improve enough to put off the hip replacement remains to be seen.
4. Right hip: Very much affected by environmental factors. Other than weather. The contact cement set me back at least a month. I have to continue using it; I will just have to be even more careful.
5. Brain: Worrisome right now. It's gone from not being able to remember anything to not being able to see what's in front of me. I have *never* been this spacey, even at the height of my low blood sugar in my teens. Found and started SAMe yesterday - when my brain isn't working, I forget that it needs this.
7. Sugar: Doing well at the moment. I give in to occasional apple or raisin bran, but the effects don't seem to be too durable. This, of course, is subject to change at any second. Blood sugar tends to be in the 90's when I measure it early in the day. It's 69 at the moment (after exercising), but I don't feel weak or dizzy.
8. General health: Not great. Sometimes I have difficulty getting enough air into my lungs, and feel dizzy. I run out of energy too fast. I did 200 running steps today, but yesterday couldn't do 100. Still have uncomfortably irritable bowel.
1. My arms are stronger than my legs, proportionately. This is not good, since they aren't as strong as I would wish, and my legs used to be very strong. But they aren't in need of anything particularly.
2. Legs are bad. Even my 'stong' right leg wears out in the course of doing one grocery stop. This may not be fixable without doing the hip replacement first.
3. Left hip: Jury's still out. It *has* improved a lot since I stopped eating white bread last week. Whether it can improve enough to put off the hip replacement remains to be seen.
4. Right hip: Very much affected by environmental factors. Other than weather. The contact cement set me back at least a month. I have to continue using it; I will just have to be even more careful.
5. Brain: Worrisome right now. It's gone from not being able to remember anything to not being able to see what's in front of me. I have *never* been this spacey, even at the height of my low blood sugar in my teens. Found and started SAMe yesterday - when my brain isn't working, I forget that it needs this.
7. Sugar: Doing well at the moment. I give in to occasional apple or raisin bran, but the effects don't seem to be too durable. This, of course, is subject to change at any second. Blood sugar tends to be in the 90's when I measure it early in the day. It's 69 at the moment (after exercising), but I don't feel weak or dizzy.
8. General health: Not great. Sometimes I have difficulty getting enough air into my lungs, and feel dizzy. I run out of energy too fast. I did 200 running steps today, but yesterday couldn't do 100. Still have uncomfortably irritable bowel.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Self Evaluation, continued
Part 3: The Yeast Connection
That's actually the name of a book, which I really need to re-read. Yeast is heavily on my mind today, since it's worse than yesterday. That's because I gave in an ate an apple yesterday, followed by raisin bran.
My Theory goes like this:
Given: I have yeast overgrowth
Given: Yeast eats sugar; one of the by-products is B vitamins
1. The dominant yeast eats up the sugar in my blood, leaving behind B vitamins which make me feel good, because that's what B vitamins do.
2. Now I feel good, but hungry.
3. The raw foods that I ought to eat don't taste good, because I'm in 'sugar addiction' mode, so I eat sweet.
Result: More yeast.
So the only thing to do is starve, starve, and more starve. I *do* eat the raw vegetables, because they're good for me and help to counteract the yeast effects, but they taste only minimally better than sawdust. This is probably helped along by losing all those B vitamins, without which you can't actually taste anything.
Hmm ... I hadn't thought this out this completely before. I *do* take B vitamins, but perhaps not enough ...
That's actually the name of a book, which I really need to re-read. Yeast is heavily on my mind today, since it's worse than yesterday. That's because I gave in an ate an apple yesterday, followed by raisin bran.
My Theory goes like this:
Given: I have yeast overgrowth
Given: Yeast eats sugar; one of the by-products is B vitamins
1. The dominant yeast eats up the sugar in my blood, leaving behind B vitamins which make me feel good, because that's what B vitamins do.
2. Now I feel good, but hungry.
3. The raw foods that I ought to eat don't taste good, because I'm in 'sugar addiction' mode, so I eat sweet.
Result: More yeast.
So the only thing to do is starve, starve, and more starve. I *do* eat the raw vegetables, because they're good for me and help to counteract the yeast effects, but they taste only minimally better than sawdust. This is probably helped along by losing all those B vitamins, without which you can't actually taste anything.
Hmm ... I hadn't thought this out this completely before. I *do* take B vitamins, but perhaps not enough ...
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Self Evaluation, continued
Part 2: Physical Condition
Health, of course, is crucial to any kind of useful life. Mine has gone up and down too many times to count, and is presently in one of the 'down' cycles.
Overt issue: Hips
The left hip has gotten bad enough that I don't think it will get better again. I am seriously considering a hip replacement this year. In the meantime the left knee has become uncomfortably unreliable. I'm hoping that *that*, at least, is reversible.
A few weeks ago, I worked intensively with contact cement, laying floor tile in Daughter's kitchen. Since then, I've had extreme difficulty with both hips, the knee problem developed, I've been depressed, tired, and had difficulty thinking.
Daughter recommended Dr. Mark Hyman's UltraThyroid Solution, and this does appear to address the problem. I bought the books ($20) and am working on following the guidelines.
Symptoms I have which are indicative of hypothyroidism:
I think I'm a very high risk candidate!
Other physical issues:
I have very good skin. I was born with it, and then stayed out of the sun all my life. I could pass easily for 15 years younger than I am. But I haven't been taking care of my face the way I should, and it shows. I know from experience that if I use my Mary Kay daily, it will improve my appearance drastically. So I'm going to start doing that.
I'm keeping a record of weight, basal temperature, and blood sugar starting today.
Health, of course, is crucial to any kind of useful life. Mine has gone up and down too many times to count, and is presently in one of the 'down' cycles.
Overt issue: Hips
The left hip has gotten bad enough that I don't think it will get better again. I am seriously considering a hip replacement this year. In the meantime the left knee has become uncomfortably unreliable. I'm hoping that *that*, at least, is reversible.
A few weeks ago, I worked intensively with contact cement, laying floor tile in Daughter's kitchen. Since then, I've had extreme difficulty with both hips, the knee problem developed, I've been depressed, tired, and had difficulty thinking.
Daughter recommended Dr. Mark Hyman's UltraThyroid Solution, and this does appear to address the problem. I bought the books ($20) and am working on following the guidelines.
Symptoms I have which are indicative of hypothyroidism:
| fatigue dry skin brain fog fluid retention thinning hair constipation cold sensitivity loss of sex drive hot flashes | brittle fingernails cold hands and feet low blood pressure muscle fatigue and pain very low basal body temperature difficulty getting up in the morning depression/apathy/anxiety yeast overgrowth exposure to environmental toxins |
I think I'm a very high risk candidate!
Other physical issues:
I have very good skin. I was born with it, and then stayed out of the sun all my life. I could pass easily for 15 years younger than I am. But I haven't been taking care of my face the way I should, and it shows. I know from experience that if I use my Mary Kay daily, it will improve my appearance drastically. So I'm going to start doing that.
I'm keeping a record of weight, basal temperature, and blood sugar starting today.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Starting Here - a self evaluation
The trouble with evaluating yourself is that you truly have only yourself to compare to. However, I have a lot of previous years of myself to do that with.
Part 1 - Interests
A. What they are presently
I've spent most of my time since the fire on fixing up the house. So much so that it's begun to feel like that is my only natural creative outlet. This incorporates:
Woodworking: shelf and wall building
Flooring: rubber floor tiles, ceramic bathroom tiles
Walls: insulation, wallboard, plaster, paint, wallpaper
Windows: porch, attic
Plumbing: starting-from-scratch on three bathrooms
Wiring: new fixtures and outlets around the house
Lately, it's come down more to organizing - books, papers, finances, clothes, souveniers, LotR stuff, crafts, etc.
For relaxation, I'm watching too much TV, spending time on internet blogging, and playing computer games (Spider, Free Cell, and Civilization).
And I've done the Toronto Sci-Fi Expo for 4 years. *That* will continue!
But for the most part, I really need to be able to move on.
B. What they should be
Reading and writing, primarily.
Paper-type art: drawing and painting.
Eggury: It's been so long since I did this that I'm not even sure whether I want to.
Tarot Cards: If I don't complete this project, I will never forgive myself.
Cons: A little bit. I have to be careful not to commit to too many of them.
What it takes to get from A to B:
Stop wasting so much time on games! Enough with the Civ!
Finish the damn house, a'ready! Or at least get it far enough that it isn't 'in the way' of getting other things done. This means:
Create a private space for Hubby.
- Don't even have the plans finalized yet.
Get the books sorted/stored.
- Shelves all made, just needs good legs for carrying.
Make more closet space.
- Purchased ready-made organizers, but haven't planned yet how they will be used.
Finish all three bathrooms.
- Starting with the attic.
Finish/organize the back room.
Take the porch apart and re-do it permanently.
- Put siding on panels?
Part 1 - Interests
A. What they are presently
I've spent most of my time since the fire on fixing up the house. So much so that it's begun to feel like that is my only natural creative outlet. This incorporates:
Woodworking: shelf and wall building
Flooring: rubber floor tiles, ceramic bathroom tiles
Walls: insulation, wallboard, plaster, paint, wallpaper
Windows: porch, attic
Plumbing: starting-from-scratch on three bathrooms
Wiring: new fixtures and outlets around the house
Lately, it's come down more to organizing - books, papers, finances, clothes, souveniers, LotR stuff, crafts, etc.
For relaxation, I'm watching too much TV, spending time on internet blogging, and playing computer games (Spider, Free Cell, and Civilization).
And I've done the Toronto Sci-Fi Expo for 4 years. *That* will continue!
But for the most part, I really need to be able to move on.
B. What they should be
Reading and writing, primarily.
Paper-type art: drawing and painting.
Eggury: It's been so long since I did this that I'm not even sure whether I want to.
Tarot Cards: If I don't complete this project, I will never forgive myself.
Cons: A little bit. I have to be careful not to commit to too many of them.
What it takes to get from A to B:
Stop wasting so much time on games! Enough with the Civ!
Finish the damn house, a'ready! Or at least get it far enough that it isn't 'in the way' of getting other things done. This means:
Create a private space for Hubby.
- Don't even have the plans finalized yet.
Get the books sorted/stored.
- Shelves all made, just needs good legs for carrying.
Make more closet space.
- Purchased ready-made organizers, but haven't planned yet how they will be used.
Finish all three bathrooms.
- Starting with the attic.
Finish/organize the back room.
Take the porch apart and re-do it permanently.
- Put siding on panels?
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Long-Term Plans
I've kind of considered returning to school (for the sixth time) to complete that elusive Bachelor's degree and go on to a Master's. To what effect, though? While I love taking classes, I have no interest in getting a degree only to say that I did. I would want a real purpose behind it. I have given serious thought to becoming a math teacher, which is something I love.
I've also considered going into accounting. I love spending hours with figures, making everything come out right. But it *would* involve considerable learning at a higher level than I have been in the habit of living in, and it isn't as though I need the money.
What else might I do? Travel is out of the question. A certain amount of it is fine, but I'm a home-body. I like my computer, my sewing machine, my hobbies, my kitchen ... etc. Also, my husband and I have very different tastes when it comes to vacations, and I've no interest in going anywhere without him.
Writing! Writing is very appealing. I've always wanted to be a writer, and believe that I'm quite good at it. The problem is that over the last year I have started to put a time commitment into it, and I'm not sure that I am still adaptable enough for it. Nevertheless, I will try it and see where it leads.
And probably I'll return to my hobbies. I miss creating things. Maybe I'll set up an on-line business to sell the results.
Looks like actually I'll probably kind of continue to do as I have: a little bit of everything.
So the next question is: Will I have the health and ambition for it?
So this Journal is devoted to My Future and How to Get It - How I'm going to regain/maintain my Joie de Vivre so that I can have a happy, fulfilling, productive last quarter of my life!
I've also considered going into accounting. I love spending hours with figures, making everything come out right. But it *would* involve considerable learning at a higher level than I have been in the habit of living in, and it isn't as though I need the money.
What else might I do? Travel is out of the question. A certain amount of it is fine, but I'm a home-body. I like my computer, my sewing machine, my hobbies, my kitchen ... etc. Also, my husband and I have very different tastes when it comes to vacations, and I've no interest in going anywhere without him.
Writing! Writing is very appealing. I've always wanted to be a writer, and believe that I'm quite good at it. The problem is that over the last year I have started to put a time commitment into it, and I'm not sure that I am still adaptable enough for it. Nevertheless, I will try it and see where it leads.
And probably I'll return to my hobbies. I miss creating things. Maybe I'll set up an on-line business to sell the results.
Looks like actually I'll probably kind of continue to do as I have: a little bit of everything.
So the next question is: Will I have the health and ambition for it?
So this Journal is devoted to My Future and How to Get It - How I'm going to regain/maintain my Joie de Vivre so that I can have a happy, fulfilling, productive last quarter of my life!
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